You call me crazy now

I used to see myself In the reflection of your eyes You call me crazy now But I wasn’t crazy back then Don’t bother tell me how Or why, the reason you hate me You were the tile of my book But I was a chapter in yours Where did you get that look Haven’t seen you in years.. Everyday when the sun goes down I go out to stare at the darkness of ‘now’ Next thing I know, my eyes are not dry anymore Sure as hell, ain’t tears of joy, no more Harmozi said ‘build capacity, When you don’t know what to do’ It stuck with me Because I don’t know what to do Tell me something will you What did I do so bad, not to deserve you Cosmic loneliness, my old friend Often pays a visit and say, it’s time to end All this sorrow, darkness and feelings I beg for one more day, ‘I’ll try my best’ ‘I will do better, please let me live, Let me find whatever I’m looking for’ Mind of crooked, monster inside No one ever look inside To see the beauty upside What am I doing.. Uhh It’s love that drives the universe A single silver lining of hope From here to eternity! The greatest thing we will ever have I asked myself what single word best describes me Nonchalant? Now that’s stuck with me Idealism, materialism, nihilism, animism, Absurdism, buddhism, existentialism, stoicism You name it, I studied them all Thinking I’d find answers To the questions keeping me up at night Here I am, what a journey! Flesh and blood in fresh again Trying to start to live again Like nothing ever happened Perhaps nothing did happen Maybe, Just maybe, I’m still stuck With memories of You! Looking at the full moon, reminds me of you The day I promised to remember you Regardless where we’re or whom we’re with, Full moon will always be the memories of You! I and them will tell many more stories You don’t have to like or believe. The real question is Which story do you prefer?