I wish one day my call will get accepted

I though it’ll be happily ever after I had no idea what I am after I don’t see my life getting any softer This is my story, I’m not trying to alter Day by day we all getting older Day and night I’m trying a little harder For you, Imma be (not) a very special offer My bad, I’m sad, I couldn’t help them, Couldn’t even help myself years back then I tried to talk, I tried to walk the walk But their worldview was already frozen cold I told her my world need to evolve I’ll sure regret all my life-long The only imposter and I feel alone I just needed someone for the ride along I write all these lines, about my life So that I can escape the room and be alive I feel dead inside, I’m only awake beside The fact I write about this hard ride of life Today I really turned 22 hehe Only seven friends were there to wish me My guess is, hardly any of them miss me I remember when people tried to impress me I’m telling you for the 20th time, I’m like my dad, no this is not fun, I feel like shit, duh “you’re so dumb” Even if you’re the one, I might still run Cause I’m insecure, sold and can’t be undone I wanna soldier up, with my hope on top But my self itself gonna let it stop I love tabletops, but I had to drop See, my life is not a coffee shop I can still find flaws in perfection I know it’s not a fault in perception Maybe misaligned stars in all directions Does it mean birth of new constellations? A kid with no hopes, just trying to survive I can’t help you not to give up I’m depressed and sleep deprived I hope one day my call is accepted I hope one day I won’t feel neglected Maybe it’s about falling and getting up reflected I hope one day my call will get accepted